Day In The Life...Photos...Reading Time

The "beloved book of the day was "Five Little Ducks." If I remember right, grandma McGrath gave us this book. All day long they read it over and over and sang it over and over....until mama said, "Okay, enough. No more five little ducks!" :)





And, of course, we have the young theologian, Nehemiah, seriously studying the scriptures! This was just too cute. When I looked over and saw this, I had to take the picture! :)

A Day In The Life Of...In Photos! Part Three

Time for the baby to wake up from his AM nap!

One of our favorite times of the day!

A Day In The Life Of...In Photos! Part Two

Schoolwork!

A Day In The Life Of...In Photos!

So, yesterday, I decided to document our day in photos! I should say, part of our day, because I only got to early afternoon! It was alot of fun, and helped me to see the normal things we do in a different light! Plus, it gave me some practice with ambient lighting!

This will be several posts, due to the amount of photos! We start with breakfast:

I made some yummy orange-cranberry scones..my new favorite! It was the King Arthur mix, though, I'm afraid to say! No homemade scones this morning!

And, then there was Vanilla Biscotti coffee. Another favorite of mine lately!

So, now you're thinking...what does this jar have to do with breakfast? Well, it's my candle jar! The top holds a votive holder and a tealight candle. While I was making my yummy scones, Nehemiah was...yes, tasting the candle! I turned around to find what you see in the picture below! Oh, how a 1 1/2 year old keeps you on your toes! :)

Typical morning at the McGrath house! :)

Do's and Don'ts of Caring for a Newborn...

Click here for the whole cartoon set! Very funny! (Got this link from http://www.humblemusings.com/)

Ho, Ho, Ho...hee, hee!

I got to see the first family I ever was a nanny for when we went home this past Christmas. It just so happens that Mike, the dad, dresses up as Santa every year. So, he dressed up and they "stopped by" Shane's parents house. It was so fun for the kids! This was Nehemiah's first "Santa sighting." This picture makes me giggle! :)

No Greater Love...

Click here for a beatiful story of a mother's love. I'm sure her child is thankful that she chose life for him! Brings tears to your eyes!

I want to smile more...

"..Smiles are little things, cheap articles to be fraught with so many blessings, both to the giver and the receiver-pleasant little ripples to watch as we stand on the shore of every day life. These are the higher and better responses of nature to the emotion of the soul. Let the children have the benefit of them-those little ones who need the sunshine of the heart to educate them, and would find a level for their buoyant nature in the cheerful, loving faces of those who need them. Let them not be kept from the middle-aged, who need the encouragement they bring. Give your smiles also to the aged. They come to them like the quiet rain of summer, making fresh and verdant the long, weary path of life. they look for them from you, who are rejoicing in the fulness of life....

But, O woman-whether you live in a palace or in a hovel-if your chief care be to have God ever live in your heart, His light within you will shed such unearthly beauty on all things. You will make your loved ones see a fairy palace in this world, in spite of your own poverty and your life of hard labor. So, keep that light ever full in your family's soul.

The chief aim in your sharing all joys and amusements with your dear ones should be to make them feel that your presence, your love is for them the source of all present happiness, and that they can come to your arms, to your heart at all hours."

(from"Daughters Of Destiny" by Noelle Wheeler)

(picture is Lizzie as a baby)

Godliness and Purity

Okay, Shane and I have gone back and forth on the issue of letting our girls watch High School Musical, the big hit that all the kids are into. We let our girls watch both the first two movies, and though we didn't find them "bad," we just felt that there were better role models we could put in front of our children. Although the movies didn't put out "bad" messages, we didn't feel that any of those girls were who we wanted our girls to emulate. The movies were just more Amoral-not good morals, not bad morals.


Now, some people have thought us a bit...oh...maybe legalistic or maybe we have just agreed to disagree when we prefer to not have our girls watch the movies at home anymore. But, we all have to do what we feel God is telling us.

I just found this article, after having heard it from Shane. Not sure if some of you have heard...but is this really who we want our girls emulating? I don't claim that the movies, which are "worldly-innocent" are celebrating this, but this is who our girls are looking up to and want to be. God has called us to raise our children in holiness, and to put Godly role models in front of them. Please don't misunderstand me. We have made many mistakes and many wrong choices, and have had to go back and rethink things. And, I don't know what the answer is. Are there any shows that uphold Godly virtues for our young children? Do we stop watching TV altogether? I doubt any of us will, but we have a responsibility to our children to protect them from immoral role models, to uphold Godliness and purity to them. Is sexiness "empowering," as Vanessa says? Is NOT posing for Playboy moral enough for us? Is this what we want for our girls? Or, is Godliness beautiful?....just food for thought.

"High School Musical star Vanessa Hudgens {who plays Gabriella} has split with her boyfriend and
co-star Zac Efron, and is considering posing for a men’s magazine - according to
reports.
Hudgens, who was involved in a nude photo scandal earlier this
month, split with boyfriend Efron while he was overseas, OK! magazine
reported.
The mag said Hudgens was seen with another man at a Hollywood Hills
party while Efron was in Australia to promote the movie
Hairspray.
Eyewitesses told OK! magazine that Hudgens was “all over” her
older date, and when someone asked her about Efron she “threw a
fit”.
Meanwhile, the Starpulse entertainment blog reported Hudgens is
considering posing for a men’s magazine - but has ruled out a spread in
Playboy.
“I think being a woman and being able to show a sexy side is
empowering,” Starpulse reported Hudgens as saying.
“Being able to show we are
comfortable in our skin is a good thing. I totally would pose for a sexy
magazine. But not Playboy.”
Earlier this month, a nude photo of Hudgens
circulated widely on the internet.
Hudgens said she was “embarrassed” and
regretted ever having taken the photos.
It is not yet known who leaked the
photos."

And a few more....

A few more from the Pepper wedding!

Pepper Wedding Nov. 2007

More for the Blessings Journal...

Blessings Journal Post

It's about time to add to my Blessings Journal...to thank the Lord for all His blessings and gifts.

1. I thank the Lord for the people at The Point Community Church. From the love gift to help our moving needs, to all the men who showed up to help us move...to all the ladies who helped me pack and unpack and fixed us meals....to all the prayers for our move...you have shown us your love. We thank the Lord for you, and we extend our personal thanks to you.

2. God provided us a truck as a second car for free! We didn't even ask Him for it or ever think about it. We were just happy to live close to the church with one car! :) We are thankful to the donor...may the Lord bless you.

3. God has provided our needs through various means. From Christmas money from family to personal love gifts, God has continued to amaze us with the generosity of His people. We are thankful for all He has given us.

4. We are thankful for the way we got to leave Crossings. They sent us off with love and a nice Home Depot card! :) We were blessed by their joy in what God is doing in our lives. We are so blessed that we got to be a part of this ministry!

5. There were Christmas gifts for all of us on our front door when we got home from Indy. Since they were labeled "from your friends", we will say thank you to whoever you are. The Lord knows. That was a blessing.

6. We are thankful for our new home. God has truly blessed us. It feels like home, and we know we are very blessed. We are so happy to be near the church...and, need I say it again...close to a grocery store! :)

7. I am thankful that God has heard the desires of my husband's heart and placed him where he has felt called for years. Ten years ago, he told me he had the desire to be an associate pastor, and there is no better feeling than to see your husband's calling being fulfilled. God continues to be faithful, in spite of knowing us and our weaknesses so well! We are thankful for this opportunity to serve His people. May He who called us find us faithful.

8. My mother's cancer is in remission. For that I am so thankful to God. That He has given us more time with her. I am thankful for the work He did in her heart through her cancer. He is a good and gracious God, and I am blessed to have her as my mother for a little while longer!

9. I am thankful for my children. They continue to bless my heart daily. (not that they never drive me a little crazy!) But, they melt my heart with their little kisses and hugs, and I know they are a reward from God.

10. For my husband...to have a husband who loves the Lord and serves Him wholeheartedly is a gift. God gave me more than I ever could have imagined in Shane. He leads our family, he keeps me in line, and he leads us to love the Lord more and more by his personal example. He teaches me correct theology....he protects me from those who try to hurt me....and I am so thankful for all of this....and if I've never mentioned it, he's also extremely good-looking! :)

God has indeed been good to me. He gives good gifts. It's been a good year.

Funny Guy!

Click here to see some great video clips from a guy named Tim Hawkins. Don't know much about him. Shane found him from a link off Joshua Harris' blog. We laughed and laughed at the "Homeschool Family" video. That's what scared Shane the most when we decided to start our homeschooling adventure! He said we would, as long as we never looked like a "homeschool" family-and you all know what I mean! So, I took my jean jumpers back to Goodwill (since you can't find them anymore unless you make them)!

Anyhow, once you're done laughing at the homeschool family, check out "Cletus take the reel." Too funny! :)

Hope you all had a Merry Christmas. I'll be blogging about ours soon.

Growing Weary?

"And let us not be weary in well doing; for in due season we will reap if we faint not."
Galatians 6:9

"...The Christian life is NOT a task. The Christian life ALONE is worthy of the name life. ..It is the life the Son of God Himself lived....I [must] remind myself it is a great and good life, it is 'well doing.'...How have I gotten into this life-this life that I am..finding hard and difficult?..There is only one answer. We have come from that to this because the only begotten Son of God left heaven and came down to earth for our salvation, He divested Himself of all the insignia of His eternal glory and humbled Himself to be born as a babe and to be placed in a manger, spat upon and reviled. He had thorns thrust into His head and was nailed to a cross, to bear the punishment of my sin. That is how I have come from that to this, and if I ever, even for a fraction of a second, question the greatness and the glory and the nobility of this walk in which I am engaged, well then I am spitting upon Him. Out upon the suggestion! 'Be not weary in well doing!' My friend, if you think of your Christian life in any shape or form...as a wearisome task or duty, I tell you to go back to the beginning of your life, retrace your steps to the wicket gate through which you passed. Look at the world in its evil and sin, look at the hell to which it was leading you, and then look forward and realize that you are set in the midst of the most glorious campaign into which a man could ever enter, and that you are on the noblest road that the world has ever known."

"...The world is too much with us, that is our trouble.."

(D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones, Spiritual Depression)

A Little Bragging On My Shane....

Click here for a great article on my husband by our dear friend, Josh. Josh is the lead singer for the famous Josh Martin Band, and a great guy besides! :) I read this and it was so sweet, I had to share. Thanks, Josh. I like Shane, too! The only thing you didn't mention is that he's kind of a hunk, too! :)

Movin' On....

Well, it seems as if our time in Bagdad, Kentucky has come to an end. What a great three years it's been. Full of good times, great memories, wonderful people, and a few trials! But, God has been so good to us, and it's been such a blessing to be a part of Crossings Ministries. We are so excited to see what God has ahead for this ministry.

For now, God has called us on. On Saturday...yes, in two days...we are moving to Frankfort. Shane is going to be the full-time Teaching/Associate Pastor at The Point Community Church. This is amazing in so many ways. Ten years ago, he felt the calling to be an associate pastor, and here we are. It's so neat to see God fulfill a calling in your husband's life. There is a peace and a joy there. And, it's so great to be part of a church that we absolutely love! We have loved this church from the beginning and knew God had us there. We are so overwhelmed with all He has done. We now get the privilege to serve the people there full-time. It will be great to be in the same town as they are!

So, God has also blessed us with owning our first home. It's a cute little beford stone ranch about five minutes from the church. It was quite a big downsize for us, but that gives us the opportunity to get rid of junk we don't need! :) I'll post pictures when we get it all together. We have a great yard for the kids, and the convenience of living so close to everything, with a country setting.

We were blessed with the addition of my family here for Thanksgiving. My parents and sisters got to join us, and in the midst of the boxes, we sat in our pj's and had a great dinner and a good time together! Mom's cancer is in remission and they have headed out on their life journey now! (Dad and mom bought an RV and are wanderers now!) It will be different, and we will miss seeing them as often, but we are excited for what God has ahead for them.

We will go home to Indy around Christmas time to visit Shane's family. My sisters are going to join us for Christmas eve/day, which will be a lot of fun. It's gonna be a little crazy getting the house together and all the Christmas decorations out, but what's life without some craziness? Seems to be par for the course for us!

As we move on, I will miss the people at Cedarmore and Crossings I have come to love, but plan to continue those friendships. God has grown us and blessed us here. It's a bittersweet move for me. I am looking forward to being closer to the grocery store, but I will miss the beautiful 30 minute drive home I have now! :) And, I look forward to furthering the friendships God has brought into our lives through The Point. It's a big step of faith on many levels, but I look forward to seeing God at work in it all.

So, just a little update....and a few new pictures of the kids from the pumpkin patch in October! Merry Christmas!

More on Trials of Faith...

Well, I'm still going through the book "Spiritual Depression" by D. M. Lloyd-Jones, and I continue to be blessed and convicted. It continues to be one of the best books I have ever read. It's so much more than depression-He really touches on the ares of our life and our walk that are common to man, and that do lead to spiritual depression when we're not seeing things in light of Scripture. The chapter I just finished, chapter 10, was on faith. He brings us to the passage of the disciples in the boat with Jesus. (Luke 8:22-25) I agree with Lloyd-Jones that I'm so thankful God put the disciples in the Bible for us to read about. I think we can all see ourselves in them and all their blunders, and here they were having a crisis of faith.

God permits things in our lives and often we find ourselves thinking He is unconcerned with our trials. "Master, Master, we are perishing!" It's as if they were saying, "Doesn't He care that we are all going to drown, Himself included?" He was asleep, but was He really unconcerned? Is He really unconcerned about us and our trials when He seems to be "asleep?" No, that would be inconsistent with His very nature. But, Christ does allow trials of faith in our lives, He permits trials. Feeling like Christ is unconcerned about what we are going through IS this trial of faith. Apparently, this was a very familiar theme with the Puritans and the Christians in the seventeenth and eighteenth centuries. It goes to further prove that there is nothing new under the sun. There is nothing we are struggling with that is new.

What greatly encouraged me in this chapter was the last paragraph. It brought me to tears-and I'm talking the "pouring down your face" kind of tears! It was on "the value of even the weakest and smallest faith." When we look at this passage of Scripture, we see the disciples' weak and poor faith. They got agitated and panicked, but at the end, they did the right thing. They went to Christ. They still knew He could do something. Yes, it was poor faith, but "it is faith, thank God." And, the scriptures tell us that faith "as small as a mustard seed" is "valuable, because it takes us to Him." And, we learn something from the disciples here. We see what happens when we have weak faith. God is disappointed in us, He disciplines us, and He doesn't conceal that. "Where is your faith?" "O ye of little faith." "Why do you behave as if you were a Christian at all?" "Why didn't you apply your faith as you should have?" He doesn't conceal His disappointment, but:

"blessed be His name, He will nevertheless still receive us. He does not drive us away. He did not drive these disciples away. He received them, and He will receive us. Yes, and He will not only receive us, He will bless us and He will give us peace. 'He rebuked the wind and there was a great calm.' He produced the condition they were so anxious to enjoy, in spite of their lack of faith. Such is the gracious Lord that you and I believe in and follow. Though He is disappointed in us often and though He rebukes us, He will never neglect us; He will receive us, He will bless us, He will give us peace, indeed He will do for us what He did for these men. With this peace, He gave them a still greater conception of Himself than they ever had before. They marvelled, and were full of amazement at His wonderful power. He, as it were, threw that into the bargain on top of all the blessings."

And, isn't that just like our God? We all know how it is when we come through these trials. We see God at the end. But, it is possible to see Him in the midst of these things. We must exercise our faith, the faith that we already have been given. The tears came from realizing his faithfulness in spite of my weakness. Tears of what a gracious God I serve. It reminded me of one of my favorite verses.

"If we are faithless, He remains faithful, for HE CANNOT DENY HIMSELF."

2 Timothy 2:13

Farley Family Photos...

A few from my latest photo shoot. I'm thrilled with these shots. Such a cute family!

Latest book I'm reading...

Well, the latest book I'm reading is "Spiritual Depression: Its causes and cures" by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones. He retired as the minister of Westminster Chapel in 1968, and passed away in 1981. But, he has been called the "greatest Bible expositor in the English-speaking world." This book is a collection of 21 sermons originally delivered at Westminster Chapel in London. "Christian people too often seem to be perpetually in the doldrums and too often give the appearance of unhappiness and of lack of freedom and absence of joy. There is no question at all but that this is the main reason why large numbers of people have ceased to be interested in Christianity," said Lloyd-Jones. In this book he "lays bare not only the causes that have robbed Christians of spiritual vitality, but also the cure that if found through the mind and spirit of Christ."

I struggle with depression myself off and on. I know most people that I know do, too. This book has been amazing. I picked it up one day off Shane's bookshelf for lack of anything else to read. But, I believe it was God-ordained for me. It has really ministered to me. I am only about half way through, but I have been convicted and encouraged. I really think everyone needs to read this book, especially if you struggle with depression at all. He talks about the causes and cures of spiritual depression.

This last chapter I read was chapter 9, "Labourers in the Vineyard." The passage of scripture Lloyd-Jones focused on was Matthew 20:1-16, where Jesus tells the parable of the vineyard workers, and how they were all paid the same at the end of the day, whether they came early or late to work. This is a bit long, but so worth the read, if you have the time.....I was both very convicted and encouraged.

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  "...they [the workers who had been there all day] began to murmur. ...they are murmuring because they were not given something extra. Is that not a terrible thing? But how true it is that Christian poeple can be guilty of this very thing that our Lord here depicts-the tendency to murmur as the children of Israel did of old, and as these people did at this point, commiserating with yourself, feeling you are not given your rights, feeling you are being dealt with harshly....You remember how the Apostle Paul addresses a word about it to the Philippians. He reminds them that they are to be as luminaries in the heavens, they are to 'do all things without murmurings and disputings; that ye may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the world; holding forth the word of life.'...What a tragic thing it is that Christian people can be miserable and murmuring instead of rejoicing in Christ Jesus. It is an outcome of the fact that they have forgotten that EVERYTHING IS OF GRACE. They have forgotten this great principle that goes right through the Christian life from the very beginning to the very end.
  
  But, that's not all. It leads to another thing, namely, a contempt for others and at the same time a certain amount of jealousy of others.....This tendency comes in and attacks Christian people who have been faithful in their witness and who have done most excellent work. It comes in most subtle ways and makes them miserable because they feel that others have been rewarded in a greater way than they have....
  
  But, above all, and this is the most serious and the most terrible thing of all, they had a feeling in their heart that the householder was unjust. In this conidtion they had persuaded themselves that this man was not righteous in his dealing with them. They were absolutely wrong, there was not a vestige of foundation for that attitude, but they felt it. And so the Christian is tempted of the devil to feel that God is not being fair. The devil comes to him and says: 'Look at how much you have done, and what are you getting for it? Look at that other fellow, he has done nothing yet look at what he is getting.' That is what the devil says, and these people listen to him....That is the spirit, and the thing that makes it so serious is that in that condition the Christian, unless he is very careful, will soon be ascribing unrighteousness to God. He will be feeling that God is not fair to him, that God is not giving him his rights, that God is not giving him his due.
  
  What a miserable thing self is, what an ugly thing, what a foul thing. We are all guilty, of this, every one of us, in some shape or form. The devil comes to us and we listen, and we begin to doubt whether God is just and righteous in His dealings with us. Self needs to be exposed for what it is. Sin in its ugliness and foulness needs to be unmasked. It is not surprising that our Lord dealt with this wrong spirit in the way He did in this parable. It is the greatest enemy of the soul, and it leads to misery and unhappiness. It is bound to do so for every reason. It is utterly wrong, and there is nothing to be said in its defence.
  
  That brings me to the cure. What is the treatment? Is is to understand the controlling principle of the Kingdom of God. That prinicple which seems so obvious but which we are so prone to forget in detail. Our Lord puts it here once and for ever. I am simply putting what He said in other words. The principle is that in the Kingdom of God everything is essentially different from everything in every other kingdom. For, he says in effect, the Kingdom of God is not like that which you have always known, it is something quite new and different. The first thing we have to realize is that 'if any man be in Christ he is a new creature (he is a new creation), old things are passed away, behold all things are new.' If only we realized as we should, that here we are in a realm in which everything is different! The whole foundation is different, it has nothing to do with the principle of the old life. We have to work this out in detail, but first let me underline again that new principle. We must say to ourselves every day of our lives: 'Now I am a Christian, and because I am a Christian I am in the Kingdom of God and all my thinking has got to be different. Everything here is different. I must not bring with me those old ideas, those old moods and concepts of thought.' We tend to confine salvation to one thing, namely forgiveness, but we have to apply the principle throughout the Christian life.
  
  ...The first thing is this. Do not think in terms of bargains and rights in the Kingdom of God. That is absolutely fatal. There is nothing so wrong as the spirit which argues that because I do this, or because I have done that, that I have a right to expect something else in return...I don't care what it is, whether prayer or anything else, in no respect must I ever argue that because I do something I am entitled to get something-never....The Holy Spirit is Lord, and He is a Sovereign Lord....we have no right to anything at all...even the rewards are of grace. He need not give them, and if you think you can determine and predict how they are to come you will be quite wrong. Everything is of grace in the Christian life from the beginning to the end....we need to watch our own spirits lest we harbour the thought that He is not dealing with us justly and fairly.
  
  ....Do not keep a record or an account of your work. Give up being book-keepers. In the Christian life we must desire nothing but His glory, nothing but to please Him. So, do not keep your eye on the clock, but keep it on Him and His work. Do not keep recording your work and labour, keep your eye on Him and His glory, on His love and His honour and the extension of His kingdom...In effect, leave the book-keeping to Him and to His grace...there is nothing so romantic as God's method of accountancy. Be prepared for surprises in this Kingdom. You never know what is going to happen. The last shall be first. What a complete reversal of our materialistic outlook, the last first, the first last, everything upside down. The whole world is turned upside down by grace. It is not of man, it is of God, it is the kingdom of God. How excellent this is.
  
  ...Paul..says: 'Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others. Let this mind be in you which was in Christ Jesus'. You see what that means. He did not look at Himself, He did not consider Himself and His own interests only; He made Himself of no reputation, He laid aside the inisgnia of His eternal glory. He did not regard His equality with God as something to hold on to and say: 'Come what may I will not let it go.' Not at all, He laid it aside, He humbled Himself, He forgot Himself, and He went through and endured and did all He did, looking only to the glory of God. Nothing else mattered to Him but that the Father should be glorified and that men and women should come to the Father. That is the secret. Not watching the clock, not assessing the amount of work, not keeping a record in a book, but forgetting everything except the glory of God, the privilege of being called to work for Him at all, the privilege of being a Christian, remembering only the grace that has ever looked upon us and removed us from darkness to light.
  
  It is grace at the beginning, grace at the end. So that when you and I come to lie upon our deathbeds, the one thing that should comfort and help and strengthen us there is the thing that helped us at the beginning. Not what we have been, not what we have done, but the grace of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. The Christian life starts with grace, it must continue with grace, it ends with grace. Grace, wonderous grace. 'By the grace of God I am what I am.' 'Yet, not I, but the grace of God which was with me.'

Verse of the day

"Thus my heart was grieved, and I was pricked in my reins. So foolish was I, and ignorant: I was as a beast before thee. Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand. Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee. My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever."
Psalms 73:21-25

Jason and Ashley

Another few shots from a couple I photographed a few weeks ago. She is the twin sister of Melissa, whose wedding I did earlier this year. Jason and Ashley were a gem to work with-such a great couple!

Tate '08

Just a few fun shots from another senior photo shoot I did recently.

On being a soldier....

"Like an eagle that stirs up its nest, that hovers over its young, He spread His wings and caught them, he carried them on his wings. The Lord ALONE guided him, and there was no foreign God with him." Deuteronomy 32:11-12

(another gem from C.H. Spurgeon-from the devotional Streams in the Desert by Mrs. Charles E. Cowman)

"...See you not, then, that God may take away your comforts and your privileges, to make you the better Christians? Why, the Lord always trains His soldiers, not by letting them lie on feather-beds, but by turning them out, and using them to forced marches and hard service. He makes them ford through streams, and swim through rivers, and climb mountains, and walk many a long march with heavy knapsacks of sorrow on their backs. This is the way in which He makes them soldiers-not by dressing them up in fine uniforms, to swagger at the barrack gates, and to be fine gentlemen in the eyes of the loungers in the park. God knows that soldiers are only to be made in battle; they are not to be grown in peaceful times. We may grow the stuff of which soldiers are made; but warriors are really educated by the smell of powder, in the midst of whizzing bullets and roaring cannonades, not in soft and peaceful times. Well, Christian, may not this account for it all? Is not thy Lord bringing out thy graces and making them grow? Is He not developing in you the qualities of the soldier by throwing you into the heat of battle, and should you not use every appliance to come off conqueror?"

Trials, Tribulations, and Crises of Faith

Trials...not necessarily my favorite part of being a Christian. God's Word says they will come, and we know they will come, and then we act surprised when they do! Well, I do, anyways. Trials come in various shapes and sizes-some are big, some small..but they all feel big. I go through these "crises of faith" as I call them. They don't make me question my Christianity, but they make me question my faith in God. Do I really believe Him, do I really take Him at His word? Too many times the answer is "no, I don't." I'd like to tell you all that I do. I'd like to tell you that I pray your faith is as strong as mine...but if I did, my close friends who know the truth would laugh at me! I struggle. My faith falters. But, my God does not. His word IS truth, His promises ARE true, no matter what I am going through. No matter what I FEEL.

God allows us to go through trials and trying times so that we lean on Him. He wants us to grow in character and in faith. He desires us to go deeper with Him, and that usually can only come through what seems to us to be fierce storms of life. Trials and tests of our faith. I want the character, and I want to be refined, but I want it the easy way. But, I tell you what, this time of the testing of my faith has caused me to go deeper with God, to fall on my knees in surrender day after day. To seek God until I find Him, just to get me through some days! But, He is good. He comes to my rescue. I know He has a purpose.

My girls always are asking me why I have to read my Bible and spend time with God. And, I always tell them that I won't be a good mommy if I don't. Well, last week I had a "not so good" attitude day! As the day was ending, I apologized to my little Lizzie, telling her I was sorry for being grumpy. She said she thought she knew why I was grumpy. When I asked why, she said, "Mommy, did you spend time with God today?" I had to be honest and tell her I didn't. I asked her if she thought that was why I had a hard day, and she said, "Yep. It is, mom. Do you want me to go get your Bible for you?" :) They are watching us, and they will see what comes of our faith or lack of it. I want to be found faithful.

"Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief." (Mark 9:24)